God gives second chances.
Thank God, that He is in the restoration business. When things get really tough, God is there to hold our hand, lead us out of sin or darkness and into the beautiful light.
I’ve experienced this grace firsthand on many occasions. But most recently, I have been facing divorce. You know, I never thought I’d hear the D word come out of my own mouth. That was always something that happened to other people, not me. But here it was, DIVORCE, staring right at me.
After multiple years of Christian counseling, my husband chose to leave in January 2019. He told me that he didn’t love me anymore and that no matter what he did to find the love again, he just couldn’t get it back. That was a big blow. It has been the most painful thing I have ever experienced. There were other problems too. I got angry too much and was hard on him at times. But, I’ll spare you all the gory details.
God’s word says that you become one flesh when you marry. Well let me tell you, for the first two weeks after he left, I felt like I was physically being torn apart limb by limb and run over by a Mac truck. I could barely function. I couldn’t eat or really sleep. I had to take sleeping pills.
But you know what, Jesus never left my side. He held my hand as I cried constantly. His words are true. He promises in Hebrews 13:5 ESV that, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” And, He kept His word and didn’t leave me or abandon me in my direst time of need.
But the thing I most want you to know is that, He has given me new life. Five months later, I’m beginning a new job, making new friends, and thankful for the new life I can look forward to. Sure it’s still hard. I still cry often and feel lonely and sad. But, God has shown me that there is life after the ashes. I’m a new flower blossoming with new opportunity and purpose.
Without God staying right by my side over the last few months, I’m not sure where I’d be. I would probably be depressed and may have turned to other worldly things for consolation, but I’m proud to say that I didn’t. I just went to God everyday sometimes minute by minute and He was there every step of the way to love me, guide me, and nurture me.
So, please know that if you are going through something very difficult just turn to God. Give the pain all to Him. I promise you that He won’t let you down!
Be Blessed,
AllisonD